I'm totally ignoring what needs to be done right now. I'm quite done with my work but it still needs more brushing up but I SERIOUSLY have NO IDEA what to do next so, onwards to procrastinating on other works. Yay.

On a more serious matter.

I've been having negative feelings about myself lately. You see, being a Design Student, I know it's not going to be easy. In fact, I never said it was easy in the first place. There are others who are WAY better than me and that makes me lose confidence in myself sometimes.

Now that I'm in a Design course, I realised I have many weaknesses. For one, I can't seem to have unique ideas. Maybe I'm not thinking hard enough or maybe I'm just afraid I couldn't pull things off. I don't know. I am afraid to try new things, to break out of my comfort zone because I'm afraid that the results will look hideous or people may not like what I've come up with. I just feel that every time when I do my work, I did not do good enough. Is it because I expect too much of myself? I've never felt like this before. Perhaps being in a Design course makes me set high expections of my own. As much as I hate to be disappointed, I have no other choice.

Another thing is, now I'm in my 1st year in Poly. 2 more years later,(hopefully) I will graduate and I will probably be working. I just cannot imagine myself working in the Design Industry. I don't know how I will be in the years to come.Sometimes, I wonder if I'm making the correct choice. I mean, it's good that I know what I want to do but when I think about it, do I really fit in this kind of industry? With all the talented and experienced people around, I just don't know what to think of anymore.

i am who i am
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