So, what are you trying to say?


HI. This will be an angry post so don't bother.

I smile on the outside but inside I'm hurt. He may or may not realise it but you know what? I don't even want him to know.

So what is up? Yesterday, he wanted me to show him the fanart drawing SO MUCH. I didn't really showed it to him but he saw a glimpse of it and this is the only thing he can say:

"Oh I saw XXX's retarded eye"

So okay, I thought. I know it looks weird. I know it looks retarded but it is okay for me to call it retarded because I'm the douche who drew it so by calling my own drawing retarded, I won't feel bad. However, when a person who CAN'T EVEN FUCKING DRAW TO SAVE HIS FUCKING LIFE says that, it offended me. The least he can do is to give constructive criticism but no.

To make matters worse, he then added:

"You know, your own characters looked better than them(the fanart I drew)"

D:

OF COURSE MY OWN CHARACTERS WILL LOOK BETTER BECAUSE I CREATED THEM, I DREW THEM AND I'M THE FUCKING ARTIST HENCE I KNOW HOW THEY WILL LOOK! UNLIKE THE FANART I DREW, I'M NOT THE ORIGINAL ARTIST THEREFORE I CAN'T MAKE THEM LOOK 100% ACCURATE. I DREW THE FANART IN MY OWN FUCKING STYLE. YOU CAN'T EXPECT THEM TO LOOK THE WAY YOU WANT IT!!

So my next question "

When he said my own characters looked better than the fanart I drew.

What the FUCK is he trying to say?

I mean, I drew the fanart in my own style. Then he said my characters looked better. It's like saying my style sucks and then contradicting himself.

SOMETIMES, PEOPLE NEED TO THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK. Seriously. OR BETTER STILL. JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND LET ME DO MY WORK IN PEACE.

I get really frustrated when people say things like that. I tried. I Failed. I know. But one thing, I don't like is when someone say things like these. I don't mind showing to those who will give constructive criticism or for those who really want to see what I drew.

Why do you think I hate showing people my drawings? I hate to know how others feel about what I drew.I just feel like I suck every time. I'm never happy with what I drew unless it is very decent. But I draw because I enjoyed it. It is my hobby and passion. It's the only thing I can do.

He totally spoilt my mood. I don't think I want to complete that fanart piece anymore. Way to go. I haven't picked up a pencil at all today...

Maybe I shouldn't show anyone my drawings anymore (unless I have to)

PS: I am pretty sure I didn't misunderstood what he said because the characters I drew in the fanart are not ugly characters. In fact, they are cute :) To me anyway.

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