I can't believe my alarm clock died on me. Because of that, I was late for school so I decided not to come. I did some work though - my literature essay and my Art coursework and a little bit of my Maths.Why must I be absent today and not tomorrow? Tomorrow's lessons are all yuck. But that's life.

Two days ago, at night, it was too early for me to sleep and I was so bored so I went to ask my 2nd bro if he had anything interesting for me to look at or read like his yearbook or something. I think he didn't hear me about the yearbook part so he decided to look through his "Box of books" and found a book about the history of the Middle East. He also said "And there are some pictures for you to look at too if you're interested." I didn't want the book so he decided to look through again and found this comic called Rising Star.

Bro:*hands over book to me* Here, this is a nice comic.
Me: Really? What's it about?
Bro: I don't know :D I haven't even read it yet lol But I'm planning to once you've finished reading it
Me:Okay...I'll read it first then

Overall, the book is nice. I'm not into those american comics but I must say the story is getting intense. I've finished the book yesterday but my bro finished it two days ago after I've returned the book to him. There are some parts that confuses me which becomes way more confusing when bro explain it to me but I understand somehow. I hope he gets the 2nd volume soon. I want to read what happens next! My 2nd american comic ever. First one being Lion, Tigers and Bears. That comic is nice too and kind of cute.

Dad said he's going to buy me a new phone soon. I don't care what kind of phone he buy for me because I'm not picky with phones. I just need it to call, text people and wake me up in the morning.

Well then!

i am who i am
8:03 PM

Just came back from my O-level Exam which is located at CVSS.

Overall, I think I did badly. I can't read with a nice tone, I can't say things properly and I tend to repeat what I said twice!! I think I didn't speak a lot. I swear the passage was being evil to us! They purposely put a lot of the word "Kegagalan" which means "failure". Try saying "kegagalan" x 10 and fast without making a mistake.

There's still Listening Compre. I need to do my best for that too!Yosh!

Other than this major exam, I also have E-Maths Paper 2 Mock Exam. I tried my best so if I didn't get a good score then :( Honestly, this is probably the Maths paper that I actually put afford in.Even if I made a lot of mistakes. For my Maths Paper 1, I passed even though it is unexpected seeing that I have been failing my class tests ever since I switched class. The marks isn't that good but at least it's a start. I need to regain my confidence!

I need to change quite a number of things for my Art coursework and purchase some extra things. Hope it isn't too expensive! Money isn't the issue now. I need to complete my work soon. Need to do well for Art and at least get an A2 for O-level! B3 is the lowest I can accept.

I was surfing through youtube yesterday listening to some Secret Garden songs and I came across Sleepsong - Secret Garden



I swear this is the most beautiful song I have ever listened to! Not that I have listened to many such songs. I almost cried I actually cried when I listened to this song. That is because it made me think about my late mom. Whenever I hear this song, I just feel like she's the one singing it to me and telling me that everything is going to be alright. She's will always be there to watch over me and the family.

The only song that made me cry so far! I don't think that is what the song is supposed to mean but I just feel it that way.

I'm done crying now. I'm alright. Don't worry

i am who i am
4:30 PM

I just feel like typing this out so...

I know that I've been watching/thinking too much POT when:

-Think of Yagyuu whenever I heard the word "Gentlemen"
-Think of Niou when I saw the word "Trickster"
-Think of Kirihara when I saw the sentence that reads "The demon within him awaken"
-Dream about the anime (I had 2 dreams about it)
-Use my brother's tennis racket(when he's not at home) and pretend to do Higuma Otoshi (Oh god I hope he didnt see this)
-Dance to the Musical songs w/o the tennis racket
-Sing songs from the musical
-Kept talking and fangirling about the characters to your brother

I don't know what else to type anymore. I think that's all. Its okay...My fandom will vanish soon.

Today in MT class, the teahcer gave us newspapers and read on "Cosplay" and I got really excited although I didn't actually show it. So one of my classmates asked the teacher what "cosplay" was and I tell her what it was and I think I spoke rather fast. Even though it's MT lesson, forget about using Malay, it's easier to explain in English! I didn't know Cosfest is this Sat and Sun but I don't think I'm going. Mock Exam on Monday. Must study!

Speaking of MT, there's MT oral next week! And Maths too. I'm kind of afraid of what conversation topic will come out but I will try my best.

Bye!

i am who i am
8:55 PM

Mixed Feelings

I might have made a mistake
I don't know
What's going on anymore
The happy times
Didn't you remember?

The only thing now, is to move forward...
And forget about everything...

Forgive my emo-ish message above. I have never wrote an emo message in a blog or anywhere for that matter so I guess this is the first. I swear there won't be emo messages in my blog. At least, I hope so.

But anyway, I HATE the new timetable we received. It's like D: I don't know how to describe it except that it sucks a whole lot. Guess my next 4-5 months of school will be gay. Which reminds me, I still have yet to complete my SS homework and study for tomorrow's Math test! D: I can't remember if it's tomorrow but I'm going to study anyway. Hopefully.

i am who i am
11:40 AM

My com was dead in the morning and I was so afraid that I will not be able to use Photoshop. Right now, internet is not really a problem but Photoshop is. Reason being, I need Photoshop to do my coursework but thanks to my brother, the problem had been solved. Apparently, a wire was loose so I just need to tighten it.

But anyway, school is alright so far. I hate tomorrow though. The lessons seem boring and any day with PE just suck. Mrs Pereira came back to so I guess that's a good thing :)

I'm done with the colouring for my coursework. Just the font thing now. Thankfully! I don't want to do lineless painting. But its kind of fun at times.I did one for fun and it turned out kind of alright. I just wanted to try another colouring style.

I seriously have no idea what to say really. My phone is dead. The only thing I can do now is text people. Just don't call me because I won't be able to hear you. My ringtone is dead too. This phone didnt even last for a year! But then again, I always dropped it so that's another story. I'm not to sure if I will get a new phone soon but I guess I have to.

i am who i am
8:28 PM

Tomorrow is the start of a new semester...This is going to be painful. New timetable sucks but I think the lessons for Monday, Wednesday and Friday isn't so bad. Like always, Tuesdays and Thursdays will always be days I hate.

Anyway, I played the Sim 3 yesterday and the sim which I created first can't die! I mean, no matter how much I want him to die he won't! I won't kill him though. It's cruel. He's like around 110 days old. Gosh.

The funny thing is, my 2nd Sim family, the father, died while talking with his friend on his cellphone lol. To make matters worse, few minutes after the father died, the mother died as well *double lol* Poor child is living with no one now. I didn't take any screenshots. Both the father and mother are like 92 and 94 days old. Why must the young ones die faster?!

V called me at 12.45am yesterday, to ask about the time table since her internet is dead(but it won't be after today I guess) We ended up talking until 4am! I only gave her signals that I wanted to sleep even though she told me that I didn't sound tired. I've never had anyone call me that late before, neither have I talked on the phone until 4am. That's an accomplishment :) Went to bed after that.

I think I might have another POT dream yesterday but I don't know what it is about. Bah!

Well, off to do some things now.

i am who i am
1:40 PM

Back to posting again.

How's life? School is starting next week which means back to stress and homework. I still have 2 more English Composition to do. Perhaps, I will do it later at night after watching Friends...or not.

Went to school to do my Art coursework and I'm a little confused on what to do next. I have no idea what I'm supposed to do next actually. Need help bad D: Stayed for 3 hours and went home. Basically, I did nothing much there. Need to go back to school for some oral thing tomorrow. I'm nervous! I hate to speak!

Yesterday, I turned 17 which means nothing much to me except that I grew a year older. Stayed at home as usual. GOSH what a boring life! But I drew something to cheer myself up! I also found some old very old doodles when I was cleaning my sketchbook drawer but that's not important. Took the doodles I drew 3 or 4 days ago and coloured them on Photoshop.



I always wanted to draw a Cat boy with swirly eyes lol lame -_- His name is Toffee because I think I was thinking of Toffees for no apparent reason while I was drawing him. The pink-haired girl name is Candice. And what do you know? I draw a freaking girl! Although she does not have that much boobage. I'm no good at drawing boobs. Spiky-haired boys are the only thing I can draw -_- My original plan was to lineart Toffee and Candice but that pretty much failed after I chicken out and used a pencil for lineart instead. Maybe next time.

Bet bro is having fun watching Transformers movie today. At least I will have some peace for now...

i am who i am
6:29 PM